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About four years ago, I had a deep conversion experience in which I made a personal decision to give my life to Jesus and to follow him. That decision, and the initial experience of the Lord's love, filled me with enthusiasm. I felt I could do anything for Christ. Over the next two years, however, the enthusiasm waned, and I grew indifferent to prayer and Scripture. I also began to fall into my old sin patterns, and with each sin I committed, I felt consumed by guilt and powerless to change.
One day as I was driving to a two-day business meeting, I let my imagination wander unchecked. Instead of trying to pray or guard my thoughts, I found myself dwelling on sexual fantasies. That night I met a young woman at the hotel lounge and fell into sexual sin—for the first time in a long while. I felt devastated. “How could I act this way?” I thought. “How could God possibly forgive me after everything he’s already done for me?”
When I returned home and went to Confession, the priest told me that I needed to see how my sins are an affront against the holiness of God, not just a breaking of the rules. Following his advice, I knelt before the cross and prayed. As I prayed, God began to show me how my sin had sent Jesus to…
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