Who Is in Control?

Infertility and the Mystery of Suffering.

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Do you believe in miracles? I do. After years of infertility, I am now the mother of two children—one by adoption, and the other by birth. Both of my children are miracles. My adopted daughter was a miraculous gift from a birth mother. My son was a miracle from our bodies, conceived during the process of applying for a second child by adoption. I rejoice in these beautiful surprises from God! At the same time, I am also very grateful for the powerful way God worked in my life during the years of infertility that preceded these miracles. The reflections below are my attempt to express the vital lessons God taught me during that season of loss, loneliness, and pain.

“You have less than a five percent chance of getting pregnant—and that does not mean bearing a live child.”

I will never forget those words. It was the end of our quest for a biological child, but also the beginning of my spiritual quest for understanding.

Be Fruitful. Like many young couples, my husband and I assumed that we could have children. In the beginning of our marriage, we focused on our careers. Then it was time for children, and for the first time, our best-laid plans went awry.

We waited for children, but they didn’t come. We tried to let nature take its course. We even used our knowledge of fertile times to capitalize on our chances—to no avail. We were frustrated, angry, and depressed.

We watched as friends became pregnant quite easily; we stood by…

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  1. jxluna12's avatar
    jxluna12

    I too struggle with God’s plan, however, I have found that in the mornings when I say a little prayer for strength and courage to submit to God’s will, there is peace in our home, with my wife and kids.  I experience more of God’s Love through those who love me, and I am more accepting of God’s plan and His will.

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